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I just had a short talk with my advisor, and he said I need to work to get pay. Sounds reasonable, but the project is about fermentation, which I need to work with bacteria.:( The most disappointed thing is that it might be my research topic. What about my training during my master degree? I really don't want to study fermentation, but I have no choice. It's all about MONEY. I feel betrayed, because I was told to work on cell cultures. but now, everything is different. Well, I was betrayed when I studied master, too. I was told to study micro array, but finally nothing related to it. I don't know how to respond. I only know that I am upset. If fermatation is my phD topic, do I still want to stay here? Is it kinds of wasting my time? What is interests? What is real world? Why am I here? I am lost.... 我知道面對這個問題 你們可能的答案 爸媽會說 唸完吧 以後工作的事情跟博士論文題目又不相關 你應該會很開心我無法回台灣找工作吧 這樣我就得留在這裡了 老闆有人給他做project 才不管是誰呢  我呢？ 有人也許會覺得 出了國的人 居然會想這無聊的問題 那沒法出去的人該怎麼辦 可是 這是我人生的黃金時期呀  黃金時期拿來做讓自己開心的事情 不是更好嗎？  人生好像沒有走了哪一步 就一定會怎樣的 對吧 命運之輪也沒有轉到哪裡 就一定是好的 對吧 那麼 難道我又要順著漂流嗎 我已經漂流很久了 一直以來沒有自己的想法與意見 我希望phD能夠做真的自己喜歡的東西呀  見鬼了 我到底喜歡啥？？ 喂！人生已經過了大半了 皺紋都長了好幾條了 妳這個終日腦袋放空的傢伙 妳到底喜歡啥？！